A seeker wrote, what I overwhelmingly feel is that humility is absent.
Humility has several levels.
InshaAllah you have the basic level.
You are aiming for a higher level. InshaAllah it will come with time. Keep doing whatever you are doing. Make repentance and ask Allah for this also.
Humility increases with increase in Gnosis (marfat). That is recognizing the true stature and grandeur of Allah, & His immense blessings on a undeserving and disobedient slave, like me.